[incog91]

...and I feel better than I have in a long time. I'm seriously considering dropping out. For the past few weeks the teasing and rejection has gotten out of hand. I literally cry every single time I go into that building. I hate it. I felt so relaxed today. I organized my room and practiced some songs on my bass. I'm really dreading going back tomorrow.

[rohit]

hi!!!
i am also studying now.doing masters.
i have done my 3 years of bachelor's degree with the odor.
I used to do the same thing skip classes and i know it feels better but i would suggest you not to drop out.I also get the same treatment as you.
I don't know what to tell you because i used to feel the same way but i never quit even when i felt like.
i preferred going through the humiliation than dropping out.
do you have close friends at school???it was because of my friends that i could complete my course.

[incog91]

I have no one.This is my first year at this school and it's very lonely for me.

[rohit]

hmm but i am sure there are some good guys who will be friends with you no matter what.there will always be somebody who will understand you.
try to reach out to the person who you think is nice and would become a true friend.

dropping out from school is a big decision.
after some days you will get frustrated and regret the decision.like i did when i left my job.
sitting at home will only make thing worse.

[mpdela]

rohit, you give good wise words.

incog91, I know it's very very difficult to start a new school, not knowing anyone, and to top it all, to have this condition. I would focus more on what rohit is telling you. Sometimes, we are so mentally focussed on those that are attacking us and hurting us, that we are overlooking those others around who are not doing so.

From amongst those that are not attacking, I would look to see from a distance which ones you like, as opposed to who likes you. Then, whenever you're ready (in time, there's no hurry), you can approach the ones you like in a friendly way.

If you were in a room where some people are being mean to someone else, how would you feel? Do you think the person who was being 'attacked' would notice your presence, or only be focussed on his attackers? Would you like to offer some level of kindness to the person being attacked if you could? There are people around who would feel angry because you're being treated that way. Have you ever thought of that?

Perhaps it would help you if you step back and look at EVERYONE in the room, not only the attackers. You would be surprised at what you would find. Take your time. Things will fall in place once you widen YOUR horizons and not focus on your attackers, whom you don't like or respect anyways.

Remember, you exist, don't let them drown you. Remember that other people aside from your attackers exist who might be very good human beings. Expand your world to see beyond and you'll make your life your way, not dictated by attackers.

Remember, not everyone smells a BO sufferer and not everyone is cruel, and there are actually people who hate the emptiness of the attackers and would like to see who you really are and to befriend you.

Be your beautiful sensitive self, for sufferers do develop deep sensitivity. Don't let anyone take that away from you. Don't bury your inner beauty, at the very least, not from yourself.

Always know that we are here for you.

María

[ireallyhatemyself]

Don't drop out. Making you life stagnant will just add to the burden. Burden from other's judgment and burden from nothing happening with your life. It's like you're hindering your progress. I have experienced that and if I do have a choice and be able to bring back time, I will go and go continuosly with my life. Don't be a victim of others cruelty.

[Doobia]

It is really a very difficult situation but never quit. I managed to finish a master's program last may and starting a PhD program now. I have started experiencing negative treatment from people in my new University including Professors BUT I AM NOT A QUITTER. You can start taking fish oil softgels on daily basis to help you fight depression but NEVER give up. There is life at the end of the tunnel, Man, this challenge will certainly be over in the not too distant future so do not destroy yourself or education.

[dm13]

Aww. My heart goes out to you.
There are also times that I skip class to feel relieved.
It's really hard to go to school with this kind of condition, however, I don't want to quit.
I have friends and I'm happy that they're staying with me despite my condition.
The humiliation is so hard, i know!
But, don't quit.
You have a brighter future ahead of you!